Memories Of A Haunted Christmas

I was a little hesitant about writing this post but I am going to go ahead and share it. This morning I spent time with the Lord, did some journaling, and I broke down crying because I was reflecting on where I was this time last year.

This time last year was one of the lowest moments of my life. I had no money, no food, had an eviction notice that was laying on my kitchen counter, and had a car in the parking garage that had a note that was 70 days past due. I was four classes away from finishing graduate school but I had to sit out because I had failed a class and I didn’t have the money to pay to retake it.  ALL my relationships (family, friends, etc.) were in a bind and to be frank I really didn’t see the purpose of living anymore.  Yes, I was on the verge of committing suicide.

I had never been so low in my life. Nothing was working for me, I couldn’t get a job, all of the charities and places that help were out of funds for the fiscal year. I had called over 30 places in Houston to help me keep my lights on and to help pay my rent for the month but no one had it.  To make matters worse Christmas was a day away and I had NOTHING to take to my family, I barely had enough gas in car to make to their homes.

Last year was the first year I had to walk into my family’s homes gift less, food less, hopeless, depressed, embarrassed, and broken.  I was so ashamed and afraid; I was the daughter, niece, grandchild that usually had her life in order but not last year.  I remember going to my mom’s house and I was too embarrassed to even eat because I didn’t feel like I was worthy enough. I remember my mom grabbing me and holding me in her arms as I bawled for 20 mins straight. It was the worst feeling in the world to be in front of my mom and have nothing to offer her but tears and guilt.

(Picture from last year)

No one in my family judged me or said anything to bring up my dim situation but I could feel their “worry” for me.  No one asked, “are you okay?”, they just gave me reassuring hugs and subtly slipped money in my purse when I wasn’t around. No matter what I had or “didn’t have”, my family never made me feel less than. (That was a pure blessing).

Not sure why God wanted me to write this or share this but I decided that I was going to be obedient. I asked him why he wanted me to share such a humiliating moment of my life with the world and he told me that it wasn’t for me, it was for him.

I don’t know who this is for or who has been through something remotely similar but I am here to tell you everything is going to be okay, I promise.

Right now, it looks dim and your trying to figure out how you are going to make it until tomorrow but I am here to tell you that God sees you, he hears you, and he is not going to let you go. Everything you are feeling right now is to make you a stronger fighter! After this you will be able to with stand just about anything that comes your way.

This morning I was able to get up and write this so you know what that means? I am alive and doing well today, I made it! Despite all the hell I went through, I made it!  God kept me. My bills are all paid up, I kept my car, I kept my home, I now have an amazing job, I graduated with my master’s degree a couple of months ago, not only am I on my feet but I’m running.  If he did it for me, he is going to do it for you.

Remember, after every storm comes a rainbow.

I love you and most importantly God loves you.

Sincerely,

Krystal

 

 

 

 

 

 

29. And you call yourself a Christian!?!

This week Krystal & Christina get down and dirty and share some experiences/choices that led them to engage in some sinful acts. Although the sins were forgiven (Christ died so that we could be forgiven) they still had to deal with the consequences of their actions. These are some sensitive topics that they have not shared with many people but it was time to break the ice and share their testimony.

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Music:

Church Clap- KB ft. Lacrae

Label: Reach Records

Copyright: (C) 2012 Reach Records

25. Krystal & Christina Check-In: Movies & TV Shows That Give Life

Krystal & Christina relax and check in for the month of September. This month they discuss everything from major life accomplishments to favorite their tv shows and songs from 2017.

Do you watch Insecure, Game Of Thrones or Being Mary Jane? This week Krystal & Christina talk about movies and tv shows that have changed their perspective and taught them valuable life lessons.

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Music:

Rihanna- Work (2016)

LabelRoc Nation / Rihanna

Copyright: ℗© 2016 Westbury Road Entertainment. Distributed by Roc Nation Records

24. Krystal & Christina Check-In: What have you accomplished in 2017?

Krystal & Christina relax and check in for the month of September. This month they discuss everything from major life accomplishments to favorite their tv shows and songs from 2017.

This week is a recap of the heart and attitude changes that have taken place since the beginning of the year. Krystal talks about her learning to give her relationships room for error while Christina finds contentment in her life.

Photo Taken By:DJ Doby

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Music:

24k Magic- Bruno Mars (2016)

Label: Atlantic Records

23. Empowering Women: Confident In My Own Skin Ft. iknowlee

The month of August is women’s month! For the entire month of August we will talk to women who are making moves and changing the game one day at a time.

 

Beauty can be defined in so many ways, everyone has something or some trait about themselves that can be marked as beautiful. One thing that most people can agree on is that “confidence” in itself is a rare jewel. This week Youtube blogger Helecia also known as iknowlee discusses the importance of knowing who you are, what it is you want to accomplish, and ways to avoid naysayers and self doubt.

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Music:

Beyonce- Flawless (2013)

Label: Parkwood Entertainment/Columbia

Copyright: (P) 2013 Columbia Records, a Division of Sony Music Entertainment